i am finally back! haven been online for quite sometime. i am so tired tired tired. there are so many things to do, but so little time! everybody's doing ahead of their tutorials. it's so pressurising. co pracs on wed, fri and sat. and there's more to come. not that i go for every prac dilligently, but somehow this explains the fatigue. the pangs of guilt are much more mind-boggling and psychologically torturous than playing an instrument for 3 hours.

tmr's I and E day, which explains my coming online. i am not intending to do any work today. i am down with a bad sore throat, flu and slight fever. and the auditions are next week. i am not fully prepared. haven even chosen a song. practised with sel today, with my terrible sore throat. the chances are slim. and the fact that we feel super demoralized after some people's comments adds on to all the anxiety. -sigh-

it'll be sometime before i get to blog again. i am tired tireed tireeedd.

no procrastination is allowed!

SEL! WE CAN DO IT!! JIAYOU!!

surprise msg. thanks. what can i hold on to? i am still seeking for that sthg. =/

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please.

it's time to slow down..
and think..
who and what are most important in our life?

guilt, hurt, pain..

problems always surface when you are part of a big clique. a big clique of 8 in my case. maybe we all seem so happy, so friendly, so on good terms with one another, but there in fact, are many internal conflicts, if that's what u call them.

8 people. can be broken up to groups of 2. some people like this idea of just having each other as accompany. others like the idea of being together as a big group better. there can never be 8 people who have exactly the same opinions. we'll only be one big happy family if we compromise with one another.

recently, competition among us has caused many dilemmas. competition in terms of not only results, but of many other things. we are competing at the expense of our friendship. nobody's showing their true self. everybody just wants the best for themselves. point 1: people are selfish.

how old are we to still be getting frustrated over the term called - friendship?

recently, i noticed someone who's on friendlier terms with people who have better academic results. so what if someone is intelligent? so what if someone is not as intelligent? i am sure you won't want your friends to befriend you just because of your capabilities. point 2: people are superficial.

then again, who am i to judge others?

love your enemies.